Let's witness 2009 at it's greatest.

I hear the fireworks, they sounds like bombs. They come at the most random times, the loud fireworks. As with the strong wind Nebraska is currently facing. I'm not sure how I feel about 2009. I mean, I can sense that it is 2009, not 2008. I just...don't have a sense of what it's going to be like yet. In 2008, I had felt like it was going to be a bad year, but it didn't turn out to be that bad, in my eyes at least. I don't have any sense yet.

I kind of think that this will be a turn around year for the world. I'm not sure for me, but I think it'll be good for the world. I'm going to do a year in pictures next year. As I was going to do that this year, but I lost most of my gorgeous photos from january08-august08.

2008 was pretty rough for me now that I think about it. Aside from the amazing friends I have made all due to the fact of a website, I had self confidence issues. The last couple months have changed that, which I am very happy about. I tried our for a play, which I never thought was ever going to happen. I did a lot more, out of courage that I gained from my loving friends. A lot of them have had more tragic things happen to them, which wouldn't know how to help them cope with, but I always tried, despite the fact I fail at doing anything remotely helpful. I thank all my lovely YouTube friends, most of which I've thanked in my latest video. <3

I think we're just going to have to wait to see what 2009 has in store for us.

Nervous? A little.

Excited? Most definitely not.

But are we going to have to deal with it? Yes.

Have a very very happy new year, loves!

2009, here is where I wish us the best!

a year in sentences.

january: i turned fifteen.
february: started my new youtube account.
march: nothing exciting ever happens in march.
april: paramore concert :)
may: freshman year passed.
june: mexico!
july: a change of pace, a secret handshake, breathe carolina, and houston calls.
august: sophomore year started.
september: skypeover the first.
october: braces gone.
november: presidential elections are awesome.

december: new cameras and old friends.

how was 2008 for you?

I wrote a short story. You should read it.

Today was one of the worst days according to the mind that I had just acquired in the past hour. I believe her parting words were “Oh, please help me God!” Obviously her little “Lord on high” didn’t receive her phone call 911. I chuckled. Her mind was different than other minds, souls, whatever you want to call them, than I have taken. It actually wanted to fight against me. That was what made me laugh. Her, that tiny speck of dust to me, fighting me, the sole reason people don’t go out after the sunset falls. It was simply ludicrous, that idea. It just made me laugh more as I glided my way through the dead of the black night.

The next mind I was going to take was even more special, or so said my senses. Why was this mind so special? Meh, I couldn’t care. All those mortal human minds were the same to me.

God dammit, shut up lady! I don’t care about your stupid damn boyfriend. This new mind I had was definitely a pain in the ass. Hopefully this next one wouldn’t be so annoying.

Finally, I reached the destination. My form shape-shifted into someone “normal”. I scaled the house up to my next victim’s room, which for some reason, I knew exactly where it was at. I kicked the window with the human left foot, and the boy in the Toy Story bed sheets rustled. He rubbed his eyes, and looked at the window I was in. He got up out of his bed and opened the shaft.

“…Matt? What are you doing?” Yawn. “It’s like, three in the morning.” Shit, shit, shit. I disguised as one of his friends?! That was a problem. I don’t even know the kid’s fucking name, let alone how his friend would act. Fucking hell, there goes that bitch again.

“Shut up! You are fucking annoying!”

“…What?” I bit the human lip.....

“What? Oh, nothing. Sorry. Let’s sneak out.”.

“…What? Why?” This was getting me a little pissed.

“Oh come on! Have some fun.” My eyes stared at him while the multiple minds in my head were searching his surroundings to find his name. Aha! His name was Zach. I guess it was on his wall of “achievements” or some shit like that.

“But we…have school tomorrow.” For Christ’s sake, this kid was a bitch too.

“Zach, come on!”

“No.” This was slowly getting on my nerves. I eased my way toward him, and rubbed the human temples on my disguise with the human fingers.

Zach, come on. I’ve had enough of this.” My voice seemed to have reverted back to my actual sound. I inferred this from his face. It was pale white.

“Matt…what the hell is with your voice?!”

“For God’s fucking sake, I am not Matt! Don’t you get it, you stupid shit? I came for you. Your mind. Now this can be done easy, or hard. Let me have it and nothing else will go bad.” I was officially angered.

“…W-what?! No! Never!” His eyes were huge. I could sense his very few chest hairs rising.

“My senses say you’re special, or at least, your mind is. Let’s see what inside that mind, shall we?” I reached the human hand out, pointing toward his human forehead, beginning to slice it open.

You see, that “Sylar” character from “Heroes” on that human television you guys watch was to portray my doing. I am evil. I am a monster. But unlike “Sylar”, I never had the choice. I was born a monster.

“Get…off…of…me!” Then all of a sudden the human hand was forced away from his mind. It wasn’t even a physical push. No physical movement could stop me from getting the minds I wanted. No, it was more of a mental push. I think he has a telepathic sort of shield to his mind. How glorious! I must acquire this power. My hunger for his mind is growing.

I need to act fast. I need his mind. I want it. This bitch in here is pissing me off as well. So I change back to my lifeless form of nothing. He stares blankly. The only way I could think of to acquire his mind was to physically kill him, but that’s how I rationalized everything I did. I always thought of the killing first.

My dark eyes scan his room. Trophy case, perfect. My power forces him to hit the case, knocking him useless for a few minutes at least. Didn’t kill him like I was hoping, but still he was useless enough for me to get his mind.

The process didn’t take long, taking his mind. I took it before he would miss it. His power and his mind were both mine. The job was done. I left before even the other humans in his house would notice a difference.

I am on the street again now, looking for my next prey. I am the world’s deadliest predator, and everyone is my prey. I am a monster.

I am your worst nightmare.

it snowed :)

It snowed all day yesterday. 

I love snow.

Christmas in 7 days :)

I'm excited.

That picture is one I took, and that's our Christmas Tree. (Or part of it)

here we are.

it's really sad when your 2 yr old shitty family laptop is faster 

than the brand new macbook that school gave you.

nearly 10 more days until Christmas. 

I'm really really really excited.

I'm going up to South Dakota (Yippee!)

I'm having Christmas Eve at my Grandfather's house by the Lake, 

staying the night at my sister's house,

and then having Christmas Day Dinner at my Uncle's house.

Oh, and plus, did I mention, that I get to open some of my presents early?

Yeah, because my dad and mum don't want to take all the presents up with us to South Dakota,

so we get to open some of them the night before. The 23rd.

Then there's school. 

I'm so depressed that Monday starts the last week of the semester.

I really loved my classes, and the people in them.

I hope I get the same teachers for Advanced Algebra, Spanish, and World History.

I also hope I get the most of the same kids in my class as well.

Is it sad that I'm happy that this semester is over,

yet very depressed that is is ending, as well?

I get my new schedule for next semester on Tuesday. (Since that's the last homeroom day of the semester)

It's nerve-racking. 

Then I have finals on Thursday and Friday.

I'm not nervous for those. I never study, yet I'm fine.

Oh, then I tried out for Tartuffe, the next play.

I didn't get casted, but I don't mind.

I actually am sorta glad, I didn't want to have to rehearse over break.

But still, I tried something new. (Oh dear God. Bridget? Trying something new? This can't be!)

I'm sure that's all I really have the need to tell you all about.

I'm going to go and write more of my Not-NaNoWriMo. 

I really want to finish it.

xoxo - bridget.

I'm bored, in Photography class, like usual.

Going to fill out a survey. For the heck of it.

1. how are you?

- I'm just peachy.

2. who was the last person you hugged?

- Kaitlin. In...Sport Skills. No wait. Josh. 

Right before Literature Honours.

3. look to your left, what do you see?

- The "revolving door" to the darkroom.

4. where do you like to be the most?

- At home. On my computer. On skype. Amen.

5. what's your fave film?

- Donnie Darko. Hands down.

6. what did you last laugh about?

- Stupid movie in Lit class.

7. whats the first thing you look for in a girl/guy?

- Eyes. Personality. Basically that.

8. what do you work as / want to work as?

- a photographer or a novelist.

9. do you play video games? if so, which is your fave game?

- animal crossing for gamecube. mysims/pokemon for DS.

10. who never fails to make you laugh?

- Sarah G. Oh goodness.

11. what are you listening to right now?

- The sound of people talking.

12. who did you last have a sleepover with?

- Oh god, I have to think. Prolly Jordan.

13. i bet you miss someone, who?!

- Everyone revolving around Youtube.

14. are you happy with your life right now?

- eh.

15. why did you last get upset?

- really upset, or fake upset?

16. who was the last person you texted?

- i can't text.

17. who do you live with?

- my family.

18. do you like living with them?

- not really.

18. who did you last shout at and why?

- Jordan K, because he's a jerk.

19 are you normally a happy person?

-  i can be.

20. what was the last thing you went to see in the movies and with who?

- twilight with alannah and mariah. it would have been with hannah, if we got to meet up.

21. whats your fave food?

- ooo. mac & cheese. :)

22. are you in love?

- obviously. not.

23. do you remember how you were 3 years ago?

- I was a 7th grader.

24. if so, does it make you cringe?

- yes. obviously.

25. if you could be with someone right now, who would it be?

- probably i'm not sure.

26. whats your fave thing in your room?

- computer. 

27. is this quiz boring you?

- yes.

28. if you had one wish, what would you wish for?

- to have all my youtube friends is one spot forever.

39. any last words?

- i never have last words.

excited excited.

friday will be one of the best days ever, and i am not afraid to say that.

yes, i'm nervous just a tad, but the excitement is overwhelming that feeling greatly.

i can't wait to say that i've met a youtuber.

oh, you say? i'm meeting hannah (inasmalltown50). at the mall. five minutes from my house.

i'm so excited. we've been talking about this for a few weeks now, and we finally have the official times and such. 

i don't think i've ever been this excited in my life.

^_^

LOL I'm so emo.

so sad to say this.

but i miss my youtube friends a lot.

yeah, i know i still talk to them.

but i feel so like, out of touch.

i feel like i'm being left behind.

all we gotta lose

is more than you assume. 

we alway fall farther

than the last man's fumes.

i'm in photography one, 

where i seem to normally write my blogs. 

i'm not sure why, really. 

as you see, i just took that photo.

possibly five minutes ago? 

i'm not sure anymore, but i like it.

i don't get to do anything awesome today.

which fails, since i was going to be going to the zoo

and sleeping over there with marie

and the rest of the church.

it was going to be epic.

but since i'm grounded, i cannot. 

nor can i go to abby's birthday party

and see twilight. 

but that's what i get when i break the rules.

michael is really funny.

he's the guy in the photo

 to your right.

we're sitting next to each other.

and he's looking at 

some wicked photos.

while i'm writing this blog.

we're weird kids i know.

i mean, he almost ate me. LOL.

so, i'm really really really proud

of Leah. (LCSSings)

she got the partnership

she's been trying to get.

claps for leah. 

yeyyyyy! 

yeah, this was pointless.

xoxo - bridget

ps. photography blogs ftw.

i'm a heart-broken, lonely, little lady.

not really, but i think you get my point.

I really don't want to be at school, it's really boring, but it's the only place where I can sit and do my own thing, like update twitter, talk to people, and etc. It's less strict here because my parents aren't around to dictate me. But, I think the only thing I'll update at home until I'm ungrounded is twitter. I might possibly be on MSN at seven CST time, if I can get on. That's only so I can talk to Adam and whoever else decides to get on. I have to be mega careful from now on though. I got caught in Cade's blogtv room yesterday. I was telling Sarah how I couldn't be there, and I got caught. (Sorry to everyone I randomly got off on) 

I think I'm going to go to the writing club meeting tonight, so I can be away from my parents just a bit longer than usual. It'll make me feel less attacked on. Then I can upload photos and do some work and etc. 

Ohohoh, you want to see this dress I want? It's from the 1950s. (I had to look it up for my next video.)

I think it's a gorgeous dress. I'm not sure about you, but it's lovely to me. 

The bell rings in six minutes. Isn't that lovely. I have two more mods today, and one more class. I'm open next, and then Mass Comm last. We're making a commercial in Mass Comm, so that'll go up on YT too. Oh, Youtube, I miss you. I need to ask someone to make a video for me on there and be like, hey, she's grounded, and etc. I can't watch it unless I can find a good proxy that is not blocked by the school. So, someone who wants to do that, you rock. 

I'll probably talk to Adam or Vivien tonight about it. Possibly Wit if she's online. I can't talk to Chago, I'm away from skype, not like he'd do it anyway. I can't really talk to Leah either, which really sucks. D:! I miss Lele. 

Imma go and...I'm not sure what I'm going to do. Possibly write NaNo which I'm know I'm not going to complete, but I'm going to do it on my own time. I'm just at a part I really don't want to describe.

xoxo- Bridget

ps. i miss skype.

dammit, go away.

you're getting on my nerves.

you disrupt my daily life.

i hate you with a passion

of a thousand fiery suns.

(old photos for the lose)

this cough as been getting on my nerves so much! i barely can catch my breath in sports skills because of it. i really hate it. it hurts when i cough. jordyn told me to get it checked out at the doctor again, since last time they only said it was a viral infection.  thank god my mum is going to call the doctor's office today to set up an appointment. that way i can get rid of this inane cough and possibly get rid of whatever is on my finger. (i think it's cartilage that just kept growing). 

blech. this week kinda really sucks. one, i'm grounded, which i shouldn't complain because i totally deserve it. on saturday, (i know wtf) i was up on the computer much after i was supposed to be off it, plus, i went and had turned it back on after my dad had turned it off. i knew it was a bad idea, but why i did it, i'm not sure. adrenaline rush, maybe? 

but then i guess yesterday, my mum says that my sister had saw that i was on facebook at 2am. which is kind of weird...because i was sleeping then. i distinctly remember going to bed at like midnight. but my mum didn't believe me and says now i have to delete my facebook.

yeah..not looking forward to that. i might make a new one, with an alias name so no family can find me. it's a good idea, i suppose.

anyway, i've been having youtube dreams lately. latest one was with cade, kimmi, and toddly. it was really weird. i really am going to be behind on youtube video watching after i get ungrounded. i am really getting behind in the socialness with the youtube friend group. i can't get on skype, so i'm lacking speak. :( 

oh god, and i feel like this grounding is rehab for my youtube, skype, blockles addiction. 

but yea. whatever. 

xoxo-bridget.

ps. don't be like me.

my wild mouse named mario.

ahh, i just love carlo. this book is seriously weird. i don't want to really read it. in actuality i'm on page 127. i got bored with it, so i threw the book down, got online, and then partied a bit with my awesome made up instrument i made in like, sixth grade. i've finally decided to pick the book up again and skipped to page 233. now i'm on 235, and blogging.

did i happen to mention i actually should have this book already done? and that i have to write an in-class essay first thing tomorrow morning (first mod) about this book? o.o;; i'll surely be up all night reading. if i am dead tomorrow, folks, i'm sorry. 

i'm a train wreck and i'm sorry about that. i wish i could get my life under control. i promise i will do my work this week. well, i shouldn't promise anything. i never do listen to my promises and i never follow through. oh yeah, sorry about that too. 

"''Make this last attempt, I beg you in the name of Italy. I should come and die with you.' Fuck the name of Italy. Fuck the generals who never come and die with you. Fuck your confidence and your mendacious promises of reinforcements. Fuck your defeats which you snatch from the jaws of victory. Fuck this frivolous war we did not want and do not understand." (Bernières 116)

blech. i feel bad for carlo. he almost committed suicide because his love died in battle from white death or whatever. (carlo is homosexual btw). and i guess from reading some stuff, that he meets the captain corelli and falls in love with him..but he likes pelagia...who used to love mandras...who has glass legs now? i'm not even sure. i'm not going to get into it.

i'm sure that's good for now.

xoxo -bridget

ps: i want a pet mouse and name it mario.

here and now, it's time for celebration

gotta scream and shout

(scream and shout)

because all our dreams

have no limitations

that's what it all about!

okay, yeah, new blog.

sue me.

i couldn't care less.

and here come the currently's:

current music taste:

i'm really digging Paramore all over again <3

current book reading:

stupid corelli's madolin >_>

current obsession:

oh my, probably my nanowrimo o.o

current word count:

6093!!

current love:

you.

i've had nothing to blog about lately. nothing super exciting as been going on. i was going to see john green on sunday but now i have no ride, so there is no way my friends and i will be able to see him.

i really do love my sister and nephew, but do they really have to come the weekend when i could be meeting my first youtubers, yet alone one of the most amazing authors ever?

screw that. i would walk there if i really had to....wait, i can't. damn long distances.

but oh well, i'll be meeting hannah (inasmalltown50 1/2) over thanksgiving. she's coming here! like seriously, no joke. i first thought it was a serious prank on me, but nope! she's coming here. and what's even crazier, is that she'll be like, less than five minutes away! not joking at all there! i'm super excited, cause we'll party it up at the mall. the mall that the von maur shooting happened at. YEAH. i live five minutes away from the shooting at the mall that made world wide news. What now!

i can't wait until summer. not at all. georgia will be a blast. i'm pretty sure it's official that i'm going now. i just don't know exactly when. i hope i'll be there when zach and leah are both there. i'll be muy deprimida if they aren't. but either way, i'll get to stay with my cousins! i haven't seen them in ages.

i'm kind of wondering how i'll get my aunt convinced to let me see zach or leah without having the whole youtube talk from her. (i'd rather not hear it again, i've gotten it plenty.) i could lie and say they are friends from school who happen to be down there at the same time? it happened in summer 07, so yeah.

buggah, i shouldn't worry about it now. summer is a whole semester away.

i think that's good for a first blog.

xoxo- bridget ily.

ps: you all lost the game.