i feel so fat.
especially after not eating for 30 hours
then pigging out at Valentino's.
AND THEN, reading everything on twitter about height and weight stuff.
):
and i thought i was a twig.

nebraska.

make up your damn mind up about weather.
i'm really happy about this week's temperatures.
keep it this way please?
i'm getting sick of the below thirties and snow.
i mean, last week was grossly cold.
no me gusta that cold.
me gusta warm.
like this week.

my mother found my webcam
she's making me get rid of it.
i to be honest don't care.
but i'm giving it to jimmy.
yeahhhhhh.


why do i blog at the worst times?
i don't know.

so, yesterday actually wasn't that bad of a day. i was quite surprised about that. it was ms. sosalla's birthday. ^ note the video above ^ (okay well it wasn't her birthday, today is, but yeah) carl made signs for her and cinnamon roll muffins, and even sang for her. if you were a bystander, you'd think he had a crush on her. but no. she's just the most awesome math teacher ever in existance. anna, carl, a bunch of other people, and i, all agree on this. it's pretty awesome.

i didn't do much after i got home from school though. i went to take pictures outside, and then i also went on firstclass to figure out who was going to go to the academy is concert with me that happens tonight. my other friend hannah (no yt; irl) said she'd go with me, since we're both mega party animals together. and thank goodness she drives. that means i have rides there and back too! i'm happy. i can't wait.

otherwise, yesterday after school was boring. i could have watch a movie, but i didn't. i could have done homework, but i didn't. i just sat and was unproductive. thanks zombie chat for excluding me, jerks. -_-

but yeah. that's all i need to talk about today. woo!

so excited. so so so excited.

internet fails

so, internet was down for a good first few mods today. 

i am lucky enough to be in cross training the first two mods. 

so i didn't have a problem.

it is third mod now, and the internet just turned back on.

i was freaking out because i needed to use the online book to do my math homework.

but i went to the math imc to borrow the book

so i could do my math homework.

and once it was done.

and once i finished writing something for jeremy, 

then internet turned back on.

and now, it's off again.

and i hate our school internet.

and this is why, this is why, this is why i'm hot.

not.

in my cursive

i realized i don't like this at all. why don't i just tell my parents about it? am i really that scared of the consequences? does the scare factor of never talking to them ever again really scare me? yes, it does. i don't want my parents to not take me seriously, but if they take me head on serious, they may not be happy of me. they may take away all communication tools i have to get in contact with them. i'm sure they might monitor everything i do. it'd be like november all over again.

but really, everyone asks me what the worst could happen if i did tell them. obviously, what i said above is my scary thought. i know it's extreme, it's just enough to make me not want to tell them. i don't know what my dad would say. he'd be more chill about it, probably. but my mother, she'd be the one who'd lecture me day in day out. i hate her lectures, because i know it all already. i'm aware of the dangers i put myself though, but i trust myself enough that none of you guys are rapists.

i wish i could just come out right with it to them. i just... don't know exactly how. i'm not sure i'll ever know exactly how. so farewell chances of going to gatherings. fear is the consumer of me. i don't like hiding secrets from them, but i don't know how i'd get them to shut up before i could finish talking. 

i really don't know what to do. it's not fair.

:/

xoxo.

mall w/ hannah + winter formal. (in pictures)

meh.

meh.

xoxo

school right now is utterly boring. i finished my advanced algebra homework. stupid imaginary and complex numbers. now i'm just sitting here listening to last.fm and chilling out for six more minutes until i have to go to spanish. i love being open and all that, but three fourths of the time, it's annoying. i really intend of doing my classwork, but i never seem to get around to doing that. i'm stupid. ¬_¬ i know i still have to do my world history discussion questions, but i really can't be bothered to look up the questions. 

i'm really really really really excited for next weekend. like, that's the weekend of my school's winter formal. chances are, i'm not going to be going unless jimmy needs me to get his friend into the dance. either way, that sunday after formal, I GET TO HANG OUT WITH HANNAH. hopefully. this time we have our numbers to call incase things get a little like whoa what the hell.

the bell is ringing in two minutes now. i need to end this on a glorious note.

done.

i'm such a conformist -_-

username: birdrage

why did you pick it?: i remember choosing it because i asked whitney to help me on a new channel name. and she chose it, since it somehow reminded her of me.

who did you first subscribe to?: this account; rockinbluewit, probably. first account; coltwhitmore, he's one badass kid.

who did you most recently subscribe to?: i think i agree with adam here, fourguysandmhazz.

what does your last text message say?: i don't have texting.

do you have any goals?: to make a new rendition of romeo and juliet for the big screen. the 1968 and the 1998 versions fail. i also plan to get the cast of romeo and juliet from our high school theatre performance from this year and have them preform it.

what was the last thing you bought?: animal crossing: wild world for my nintendo ds. currently, i'm still working for nook..because i only started...i'll probably restart too, because i like making my character look perfect.

describe the person who posted this in one line: i don't know what i should say. he is pretty cool... i guess.

are you excited about anything?: april ninth.

do you have a crush?: just a little.

have you ever been drunk?: alcohol isn't my forte.

who was the first youtuber you met in real life?: this is why i'm waiting for april ninth

who was the last youtuber you met in real life?: still waiting.

do you prefer day or night?: night time please.

are you a member of any collab channels?: i wouldn't believe so.

do you have a secret account?: a few.

do you believe in god?: i would believe i do.

which youtuber do you talk to most?: zombie chat, and aaronisanerd, currently.

which youtuber do you think makes the best videos?: i bubble with excitement when i see an amazingphil, 3sixty5days, or a wonderoustravels video in my subscription box.

are you in a relationship?: no, not at the moment.

would you date a smoker?: i dislike smoking a lot. so probably not.

where is your favorite place?: i've never been to my favourite place ever yet.

are you a happy person?: i would say most of the time.

would you kiss the person who posted this?: zach told me to say yes, but i guess it depends on what adam would say?!

what would you take to the desert island?: internet and a teleporter. oh! and lots and lots of food.

do you prefer sun or snow?: i like me some snow, but i prefer the warm sunny days.

who did you last speak to on the phone?: jimmy, i would believe.

who did you last text?: i do not have texting.

what are you doing tomorrow?: giving an oral book report to my literature honours class. >_<

what is your favorite flavor of potato chips?: cool ranch

what size are your feet?: size six, thanks.

what do you want?: an ipod touch or a sony handycam. oh! and maybe georgia and the film making summer camp at UNL?

what do you need?: more sleep.

what do you remember?: that adam is a jerk and made me lose the game.

what do you wish?: i wish that all youtubers lived in a one country, so meeting eachother would be easy.

really.

So, I'm getting sick of this. Everything. Every single thing. All this picking at me, and not being able to plan anything with anyone. It's not fun, I tell you. I can't keep either life happy. My real life hates the internet life. The internet life hates the real life. I hate this.

I kind of want to just hid in a hole for a bit, and see if anyone misses me. With this thought, I am kind of wanting to re-evaluate my plans for this summer. [(?) means maybe]

June:
Softball.
Worlds of Fun. (?)
Possibly a Film Making Summer Camp at UNL. (?)
College World Series Games (?)

July:
Georgia (?)

To be honest, I don't even know if I want to go to Georgia any more. I don't even know.

I don't even remember what I was going to talk about in the rest of this blog.

Whatever.
Byeeeee.

You know what's annoying?

PLAN Testing. 

I wish I could have gotten the 10am late start like the freshmen and seniors here.

I need one of those -.-

I am open for the next hour and forty minutes. 

I still need to sign up for my classes next year.

I'm not ready to be a junior.

I'm almost at 300 subscribers.

I'm 30 away.

It's weird.

I don't like it.

I'm sixteen.

I still don't think it feels right.

I'm picking at the zits/pimples on my chin,

despite the fact I just put cover-up on like, nearly an hour or so ago.

I hate myself for doing that. -_-

I'm so self-centered.

I'm sorry.

Hackerr Heree

herro. the name's wit. oh and that picture over there; not mine xD Hers obviously. Looks more like justin though right? Yeh I know. Ok, so Bridget is a hardcore jurk and she knoes that. She tends to kill me a lot, so dont mind if i'm a zombie from here to there. Jimmy and Bridget are going out. Yep, its a well known fact and don't forget it. All those rumors are TRUE :D

Chago thinks Bridget is a racist. Bridget asked me if a mexican food related question. DO I LOOK MEXICAN?! NOES! So um, I really like this picture. Like lots. Chago's a hoe. Why am I bringing him up? Oh right, CAUSE HE'S A HOE. I own him bitches. You know what I'm listening to...

I THINK YOU'RE LOVELYYYYY

I KNOW YOU DON'T LIKE TO HEAR THAT FROM MEEEEE

BUT I CAN'T HELP MYSELF 

MY HEART IS STUCK ON YOUR OLD SELF

PLS HEAR ME OUTTT

well, well, well, well...

well do you see that to me everything is somewhat special.

but to you i'm kinda screwed, cause i imagine you'll think i'm mental

but iiiiiii

can see it in the skyyy

but iiiiiii

can see it in the skyyy

BUT IIIIIIIIIIIIIIII

CAN SEE IT IN THE SKYYYYY

THAT WE'LL BE ALRIGHT, WE'LL ALRIGHT

WE'LL BE JUST FINEEEE

oh lovely ^.^ 

Later Gators; ♥ Wit.

January 18th.

i'm sixteen.

thank you vivien!

vivien, you rock.

ohmy.

i really don't have anything to blog about.

so i'm going to blog about how much i'm excited

for this year.

this year will be a big year for me.

i know it.

well, for one, i'm getting packages from my lovely friends in a few days. (:

my sixteenth birthday is really only four days away.

over spring break, i might be going to a concert, and i might get to see hannnaaaah nanaaa.

i'm going to georgia this summer

to see leah, zach, and who knows what else.

and i'm going with one of my really good friends as well.

i can just tell that this will be a lovely year.

next blog will be a blog with pictures.

i promise.

hello hello

i want to start this blog off right.
so here is a current photo.
you know, every blog starts
out with a photo of some sort.
it ALWAYS does.

as you see here, this is a recent photo of me.
i have competed step one of the blogging process.
(despite for the fact that the photos aren't supposed to be model-like)

anyway, today was a good day, despite a few things. i realised how much i really do love my heritage, even if it isn't anything exciting. i'm mostly Scandinavian and Czech. (with a little British and German; like barely any.) my teacher, Nemocek, for World History, noticed that my last name was Czech, and said i got an A+ for being Czech. (: then this guy said he was Swedish (which i am as well) so i say that too. and Nemo says okay, you get like, a D for being Swedish, and and A+ for being Czech. It was the best thing ever. And then i almost mentioned my sister, since she had him like, 10 years ago for some note taking class. it was funny, cause he remembered her.

and then in Spanish class, we were going over one of our "interview" questions, and it read 'did you eat something that you haven't tried before?' and then my teacher, Goltz, said that if you didn't, you could lie. and then she asked if anyone has had lefsa before, saying that you could use that as the food you haven't tried before. my hand shot up. (lefsa is probably the best dish ever. it's like, potato bread with butter and cinnamon sugar.) she was shocked, and said i was the only one all day that had raised their hand. (by the way, this was my last class.) i felt really happy since i'm the only one of her students who knew what it was. i swear, i will learn to make it from my mother, and make it for you all. it's the best stuff in the world.

i don't know what else to really say.
So I'm going to depart.
....Bye.

most of the rest of mine disappearred. i'm sorry. i really did write about everyone.

i am redoing this because i am one of those major failure at these things,
and i can never finish/do them right.
i'm going to try this anyway.

you are awesome. i'm glad we're close friends, and i trust you with just about everything. (:

i have known you the longest, and truthfully, you're the one who got me into youtube really. i admire your style in videos and i don't think i could ever thank you more than enough for helping me meet all these amazing people.

i am very worried about your impression of me. you being so intimidating with your subscriber count. you're a wonderful friend and i'm glad you're there. i think our one epic adventure needs more. i think our discovered lands needs people to trade with anyway. oh and by the way, i finally got into that damn lake.

i really really really was looking forward to possibly seeing you this summer, but i've looked at prices to fly down, and it's sooooooooo expensive. :( i don't know how i'd be able to pay for it all, plus all extra money. i still love you to pieces though! <3

so, it's you. i'm glad i've gotten to know you, and i have fun talking to you. you're a pretty awesome kid, you know, for being a zebra.

you live too damn far away. but despite that, i love you a lot. you are so amazing. i think you're one of my favourites. :) talking to you and making you stay up to ridiculously late times is quite fun.

AHHH. i love you. i like how we talk on our cell phones when we're not at our computers. and i would love love love to meet you. you are gorgeous, dahlin, and you amaze me. i can't wait for you to get back to your house. :)

we live so frickin close, yet why haven't we met yet!? next time we're near each other, let's hang out! we need to. it's like, code.

i cannot wait until you help me finally tell my mother and help her understand the youtube community. you keep me sane, and we fangirl together, which is PERFECTLY fine. :) i love you.

WHY DID YOU MOVE? I'M SO SAD. YOU SHOULD COME BACK TO OMAHA ):

one day, once upon a time, i will be sitting next to you. and we will be watching hockey. i am excited for that day.

i'm really glad i met you, and now i have someone to send my scrambles to. you're so nice. it's all out of love. (: you are amazing.

you also intimidate me with your subscriber count. i died when i first "talked" to you, except, i was more or less speechless so i couldn't talk. i'm so glad i know you. did you know, you used to remind me of these two kids at my school, but now you don't remind me of them (:

i just met you and i'm glad. (: once i figure out right handed guitar, you'll be the first to know :D

i really can't tell you what the rest of my sentences where. i don't remember them.

oh, i hope i didn't forget people in this one.
i told you i fail.

one number.

Cade told me to get my middle name changed.

From Anna to Alexandria.

I have done so.